I'm Scared.

Yesterday I had to go to the doctor for my one-year check up to see how I was doing on my birth control pills (I'm on bc for my bad cramps). Well, my day started out AWFUL. I had a headache, and could not figure out where my mom keeps the tylenol, so I was so grumpy! I got in my car, turned it on, backed up, & started to drive. My car was making this high pitched squealing noise and my steering wheel didn't want to turn. The noise finally stops, but now my battery light is on. Turns out, my belt broke off, causing my battery to go low and my power steering to go out. It was awful. So my mom had to come pick me up to take me instead of just meeting me there. (Yes, I am 20 and still need my mommy to go to the doctor with me.) We got there minutes before my appointment time, and then had to sit in the waiting room for more than 30 minutes before I was taken back to one of the exam rooms. The nurse took my blood pressure, and it was extremely high (hmm, I wonder why?!). Because of that, tomorrow morning, I have to go back for tests. It seems that birth control can make your blood pressure rise, and if you have high blood pressure, then that's bad. Obviously. Well, I'm going back to have my blood pressure re-taken and to have my cholesterol levels tested because if those are high, then they need to switch what birth control I'm on. In order to test my cholesterol, they have to stick a needle in me. I am HIGHLY scared of needles...have been since high school. They make me dizzy, they make me cry, and they hurt me. I am scared out of my mind and that's not going to make my blood pressure levels any lower. Hopefully I can convince them to take my blood pressure AFTER the needle punctures my skin.

I'm scared. And I know that they are going to change my birth control for several reasons: I've gained a good amount of weight on this one, my blood pressure is SUPER high, & my cholesterol may also be high. Oh Jesus, be with me tomorrow.