My Best Friend

Over the years, I have had many, many, many best friends. My freshman year at OWU, I met Brittany. When I first met her, I didn't like her. Over a few weeks though, I found out that she was one of the funniest people on this planet and that she has the biggest heart in the whole world. We quickly became best friends, and our friendship has made others envious. The best thing about our friendship is that we complement each other--we completely understand one another, and there is not ONE THING that could bring us apart. She has ALWAYS been there for me--every single time I have needed her. The best part? She's been there for me when SHE was the one who hurt me. Haha--now THAT is true friendship right there! Yes, we fight alot, but we are always here for one another. I take my friendship with her for granted. Not everyone is blessed with a friend like her, and I thank God that He put someone so wonderful in my life. She's my favorite. :)



The weekend where we became best friends <3


At Enchanted Forest this past summer when I went to visit her! :)


We took this on her computer tonight!

He Sings Over Me

Zephaniah 3:17 says, "The LORD your God is with you, the Mighty Warrior who saves. He will take great delight in you; in his love he will no longer rebuke you, but will rejoice over you with singing.”

I got this verse from the seventh book in one of my favorite book series, Glenbrooke by Robin Jones Gunn. I can really relate the main character in the book because she's learning how to trust God. At one point, she's looking at a post card of a gondola in Venice when it hits her! God is supposed to be the one guiding our boat in the right direction, making sure the boat stays afloat, while he sings over us. We need to trust in God that He's taking us in the right direction.

This verse makes my heart happy. Sometimes it's hard for me to believe that anyone, especially God, would take great delight in me. You know, I'm human--I have my flaws, my insecurities, and I am a PRO at driving people away. So for someone to take DELIGHT in me is so happy and I don't even know how to comprehend it! Also, I feel that throughout the past few years, everyone has taken their turn to disapprove of my personality or my actions, but God won't. I'm His daughter, and He knows that I am going to mess up, so instead of telling me everything that I'm doing is wrong, He's going to sing over me and steer my gondola in the direction that He wants it to go.

This just gives me peace. God is so amazing. He sings over me! How amazing is that?! I can't even describe the joy that it gives me--I feel like I learned a few of the same lessons as Leah. But for me, I'm real--my life is real, so this actually can affect me and the people around me. God is crazy wonderful!

This is My Prayer in the Battle

Over the past year and a half or so, my relationship with God has been rocky. Mostly because I was going against God, so that I could do my own thing. Over that time I had felt guilty and down for a majority of it. Turns out ignoring God to do your own thing doesn't leave you feeling very happy or fulfilled. It makes me content in knowing that my relationship with God gives me life, and without Him, something is missing.

As I make my way back to God, I find myself struggling with past sins. I find myself being attacked by Satan--when I'm awake and when I'm asleep. But when i feel the attack coming, I've been really good at relying on God and asking Him to take care of this one because I can't do it on my own. You know--the whole "God, Satan's knocking, can you get it?" thing. :)

There's a song by Hillsong that I feel fits every situation, no matter where you are spiritually, and it helps me. It brings me peace. It's called Desert Song.

Here are they lyrics:
This is my prayer in the desert
When all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is the God who provides

This is my prayer in the fire
And weakness or trial or pain
There is faith proved more worth than gold
So refine me lord through the faith

I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain

I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and he is here

This is my prayer in the battle
When triumph is still on its way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So fill my his promise ill stand

I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain

I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and he is here

All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have reason to worship

All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain

I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and he is here

And this is my prayer in the harvest
And favor and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be empties again
The seed I receive I will sow


I don't deserve all of the good things that God has blessed me with, and I definitely don't deserve His presence in my life. However, I am thankful for it. And I'm hoping in the next few weeks that I will once again fall so in love with my Savior because He is wonderful indeed.

Grudges

I'll admit it now: I hold grudges. So please, don't mess with me. Don't say or do something that will hurt me, especially if you want to be friends with me because I hold grudges and it takes a LONG time for me to get over things. I know that I shouldn't hold grudges, and I should just let the past stay in the past. But when people hurt me in such big ways, I have a hard time just letting it go. Maybe one of these days I'll grow up and stop holding grudges. Who knows? I don't.