I Don't Wanna Grow Up

Yesterday, I went to Wal-Mart to pick up my "period pills" as Brittany's dad calls them. There were some problems with them because the computer was messing my insurance up. But this made me so angry because I had this exact same problem not even 4 weeks ago. How frustrating is it to have the same problem 2 months in a row for a simple pack of 28-pills so that my period doesn't kill me? It is very frustrating to be honest. It's things like this that make me realize that I don't want to grow up, but I do. I'm torn. Because I am so ready to grow up, but at the same time, if growing up means having to put up with crappy pharmacy stuff every time I go to pick up a prescription, then count me out.

There's a Taylor Swift song called "Never Grow Up" that she wrote after moving out of her house, and while this is my least favorite song on her new CD, I feel like I can really relate to it right now. The last half of the song's lyrics are this:

"Take pictures in your mind of your childhood room
Memorize what it sounded like when your dad gets home
Remember the footsteps, remember the words said
And all your little brother's favorite songs
I just realized everything I have is someday gonna be gone

So here I am in my new apartment
In a big city, they just dropped me off
It's so much colder that I thought it would be
So I tuck myself in and turn my night light on

Wish I'd never grown up
I wish I'd never grown up

Oh I don't wanna grow up, wish I'd never grown up
I could still be little
Oh I don't wanna grow up, wish I'd never grown up
It could still be simple
Oh darling, don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up, just stay this little
Oh darling, don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up, it could stay this simple
Won't let nobody hurt you
Won't let no one break your heart
And even though you want to, please try to never grow up
Oh, don't you ever grow up
Oh, never grow up, just never grow up."

I am currently more than halfway through college. In one week, I will have 5 semesters under my belt and only 4 more to go. WHAT?! When did this happen? When did I get old enough to be done with college? In less than 6 months, I'll be 21, and I'm at the point where I want to be an adult, but...I don't. Elementary school, middle school, and high school were so simple. College is not. I have to grow up here. I have to become an adult here. I have to, but I don't want to.